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akutasoda · 1 year ago

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wild women don't get the blues

synopsis - upon her status they cant help but feel that they can't afford to show true emotion, you want to help them

includes - beidou, shinobu, ei, navia

warnings - gn!reader(but written with fem in mind), angst to comfort, crying, bottling emotions, navia may be ooc, scratch that most might be ooc, potential spoilers for 4.0 archon quest?, wc - 1.9k

a/n: gotta love mitski. started writing this at like 2 in the the morning, couldn't get rid of the idea haha

beidou ★↷

throughout her life she had faced much hardship. this only increased as she took up her interest in becoming a pirate, but she had learnt to not care as much. but sometimes it would still get to her. so she had decided that she would learn not to care about what people thought of her, she wanted to do this and she wouldn't let people bring her down.

this meant that even after finding her people that respected her, she would not let anyone see the more vulnerable side to her. she would not let her emotions get the best of her. she had worked so hard to build up her reputation and earn the respect she now held that letting people see her sadness specifically would bring nothing but issues.

after a while, one of the only times she would express her real feelings was asking you out. you two had been very close for a while and she had found herself falling for you more and more every time she saw you. it was a rare moment of weakness for the captain but she trusted that even if you rejected her wouldn't exploit that weakness.

and after a while of dating you had noticed the facade she hid behind infront of her crew and other people. you could kind of understand why but it did upset you, you were part of few that have seen the real side to beidou and you cherised it and wanted her just to be herself all the time. but you knew the subject was most likely touchy so you wouldn't push until she was ready to talk about it.

however that opportunity came quicker than you thought. the crux was celebrating, what you didn't know but you joined in none the less, and you knew your girlfriend could be quite the heavy drinker in these situations. it was later in the night when you noticed she would probably have to stop now. so with much resistance for the captain, you dragged her back to her quarter after bidding fairwell to the crew.

even in her drunken stuper she couldn't help but gaze at you in fondness as you helped her get ready to go to bed. you were the person she trusted the most, and the person she cherished the most. and as you offered her a glass of water to try and lessen the pain for the morning, you panicked when small tears rolled down her face. you had never seen her cry before but she quickly realised in her drunken state and began trying to wipe them away. she didn't know why she was crying.

you placed the water to the side before gently grasping her hands in yours and placing a kiss to her forehead. you smiled and told her it was okay to cry, it was normal and it was healthy. this made her cry more, not sadness however but a weird feeling of fondness. maybe she could afford to let her guard down around you she thought as she took you into her embrace.

kuki shinobu ★↷

raiden shogun ★↷

during her childhood she had learnt that alot of things were defined without explanation. especially when she was sent to the grand shine as an understudy. during that time she had learnt quite well that she would have to have very little emotions to get by.

to get by she would have to not rely on anyone and do things for herself. being told day in day out when to act a certain way, how not to act and so on. by the time she had returned she felt that it had done more bad than the good it was meant to do.

for the most part of her life from that point she didn't give emotions a thought. they took up space and while she still felt some she never let it show. giving off the cold vibe she carried herself with. however two things could change this - the aratakki gang and more importantly you.

despite her being with the aratakki gang longer, she felt closer to you. the most you had seen of her true emotions wasn't even her emotions, just her without her physical mask. but as much as you wanted her to express herself a bit more, you didn't mind that much. you had fallen for her as she was but you were sure that if she ever showed you her actual self you would still love her just as much.

the first time you had ever seen her actual emotions was a surprise for both of you. the gang had gotten into a bit too much trouble and as their deputy she ended up bailing them out of whatever trouble they had gotten onto, she does love them as a family but she wished sometimes she didn't have to keep doing so.

she had come back to you feeling quite annoyed and tired. and all you wanted to do was help her destress and calm down if even the smallest amount. you had done this before but each time she couldn't help but look upon you in awe. she was so used to caring for others around her and not caring about how she felt but you had always looked after her. and before she knew it she started crying. it was Indeed a shock to both of you but you both also knew why it had happened.

immediately going to her, you embraced her in your arms and told her to let it out. she deserved everything and that included being able to express herself properly.

the raiden family were practically all puppets. all designed to continue the rule over inazuma as the archon's. therefore it was practically unnecessary for emotions to be present in any of them. ei was no exception. the last time she remembers having any emotion was during the mourning of her sister and friends. since then she found emotions pitiful and nothing but a waste of space.

meaning that as her rule as the current archon she was known to be ruthless or quite cold-hearted. but she paid no mind. it was what she had decided was best for her and eternity and nothing would change her mind.

the first sign of emotions seeping through her facade was when she was around you. she hadn't understood why? you were just someone she seemed to find the presence of comforting and tolerable to be around and it wasn't until someone had pointed out to her (miko) what it truly was.

this feeling only increased tenfold when you two became lovers. she couldn't quite understand it all to well but she did know that she cared for you, loved you. but deep down she didn't want to seem weak to you still and kept up the facade even when you could see right through it. it pained you slightly, you could see all the harboured emotions she held. it wasn't right, she shouldn't have to feel that way. so what better thing to do them slowly coax out those deep concealed emotions around you.

she caught one all to quickly for your liking but made no effort to stop you, not that you knew why but it was because she didn't understand what you were seeking to achieve but was more curious to find out. that and she didn't have the heart to stop you. but it seemed it got to her more than she thought. she was sitting idly somewhere as her mind drifted towards your recent endeavours in getting her to be more expressive.

and that's when she felt it. a lukewarm drop slid down her cheeks. she wiped it up and stared at the tear, she was crying? how and why? but right as she was staring you entered the room. quite shocked to see her crying but quickly overcame it and slowly made your way over to her. she looked at you and you gave her a smile as you brought her into your embrace.

what was this? first she was crying but now she felt like she was going to cry more alongside the new butterfly sensation in her stomach. you let her go and brought her hands into yours before giving another smile and telling her it was alright. she was allowed to feel like this, her eyes slightly widened before returning a small tear filled smile of her own.

navia ★↷

she had always been know to be quite emotional when it came to it. even more so as a child. children naturally can show more emotions than normal and be more sensitive to others but in navia's case it seemed to be in tenfolds. while that wasn't a bad thing, it didn't seem to want to align with the type of childhood she lived.

from seeing her dad be falsely accused of a crime and dying in her early stages, leaving her to take over his spot as the president of Spina di Rosula. it moved to quickly and see quickly saw how her emotions could get in the way of things. so with a heavy heart, she learnt how to bury them and put on the facade she wore on a day to day basis.

it wasn't ideal for her and she knew that but it would cause too many issues for her. but when she met you it didn't seem that bad anymore. becoming a couple meant that she felt comfortable around you and you the same. she often debated being extremely open with her emotions, like normal, but she realised that maybe it was too soon for that. so she still held up her facade.

but you noticed it kept slipping, she looked more tired than ever nowadays. no doubt from her job and keeping up her little act. you wanted to ask her about it but had no idea how to approach her. so you left it until she decided to come forward or you would have to intervene.

that came sooner tha expected however. she had a particularly rough day and had let her facade slip and release all her true feelings towards neuvillette of all people. it felt good to finally not hold back but because of the situation made her feel even worse. she just wanted to see you. and that's what lead her to the front doorstep of you residence, knocking and waiting for you to answer.

you answered quite quickly and upon seeing the tired look on her face, immediately brought her inside and sat down on your coucb before grabbing her one of her favourite beverages. she sat there staring at you, she couldn't believe how lucky she had gotten woth you. it was like a perfect match in her opinion. you quickly rejoined her on the couch and placed the drink on the table for her to geab when ready.

you were going to ask her what had happened but before you could merely get a word out she practically lunged forward and hugged you. pushing her face into your neck leaving you more worried when you felt tears hitting your skin. you returned the embrace and said nothing but praise to her. reminding her that she didn't have to keep up this facade, it wasn't who she was truly and it seemed more and more forced.

maybe you were right. maybe she could let it go and become herself once again.

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